I am about to give birth to an infant, while parenting a three year old, and (trying to) raise a pre-teen.
I am not prepared for this. I do not know what to do. He has become a totally different person overnight.
Half of me wants to just ignore him, I am not even going to lie. I mean this kid is rough! Mean. Crabby, hormonal, pissy, and SMELLY.
But the other half of me? Misses my baby.
Where has he gone?! I never see him anymore, unless he needs food, money, or a ride. When he is home and in the family room, it is to snap at someone, or pick a fight with whoever is in arms reach. He gets phone calls all day long, and so many friends stopping by that when I get sick of it, I make it look like no one is home and ignore the doorbell. Which, oh my GAWD, it is too hot right now to close up all the shutters!
His face is breaking out.
His armpits REEK.
He worries about what he is wearing.
He notices GIRLS, and then points them out to me.
When did this happen?! In any given day, even just a thirty minute span, I careen from potty mess clean ups to hormonal outbreaks over not having Ramen noodles! And I am the hormonal pregnant one in these parts folks!
But now, I miss the baby stage. I miss when he toddled behind me asking "Why why why". I miss when he used to get excited about visiting me at work for ice cream sundaes. Or when he loved being the only kindergartner sitting in on my college classes. Now he won't even be seen with me in public!
So my solution? I am still not sure. I go back and forth between hiding from my children to read Twilight and play Bubble Blaster, and crying to my husband about (damn near anything) having more children A.S.A.P.
It is a double edged sword folks, and I am getting both sides.